Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I am like a Monarch Butterfly who has finally emerged from her chrysalis! It was a long, challenging and painful process, but I have arrived, with my wings, and you will too :) !

Trust me if you can,

Judy

6 comments:

  1. You've had a rough time I see. Isn't it good to have furry friends when you're feeling down? (Ellen from Facebook)

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  2. anav_caceres@hotmail.comFebruary 5, 2010 at 10:56 AM

    Hi Judy. I found your blog via the CatChannel group on FBk. I have been reading through your posts and would like to thank you for sharing your experience and most importantly, your feelings.
    I lost my baby boy last Sept, 2 weeks before his due birth date. I found out at the last ultrasound, he had been dead for 2 days. Because of my age (almost 44), the doctor on duty suggested I go through a normal birth,not caesarean. The baby was in a sitting position, so it was all an effort.
    When the nurse asked me if I wanted to meet him, straight away I said "Yes!". I knew that it would be the best thing to do, and of course I wanted to meet him! So, I held him in my arms and I held his little hand and then the nurse told me to kiss him goodbye - and I did. And she said "How brave". And I just wished that moment never ended. And that image will never leave me for as long as I live.
    I don't know about you, Judy, but it's hard not to think about him everyday. Well, actually I have his ashes with me, cause I haven't been able to find the "right" place. So, although it seems "nuts", I talk to him everyday, and well, I guess, as you say, it's a process one has to go through..
    I sometimes ask myself why this happened (he is my only child - I like to refer to him in the present, because I know that - although Im not religious - his little soul is around) if Im not meant to be a mum...The again, after reading a book called "13 questions to Love" (in Spanish), I understood that children who are "unborn" are elevated beings who offer themselves to go through this to teach us (the parents)a life lesson.
    Well, he has taught me to be more aware of other children and their needs, and incredibly I found (straight away after this happened) that children would respond to me in a way they hadnt before. I don't know if this makes any sense to you.
    Although I don't know you personally, I am happy to know that "you have arrived with your wings"...And thank you so much for hoping that others do too.
    Take care, Judy and know that you will have a shoulder for support or an ear to listen - but most importantly, we all have our souls..And Im sure that Nicholas is arround you with that beautiful smile (as you share in the photo)helping you to "arrive with your wings"..
    Ana (Anisha Cace on Facebook)

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  3. My God, I am so sorry for your loss and share in your pain. Although I wasn't pregnant at the time, I was very careful my entire life as to who would father my children and when I found him, he was taken away...............so in a sense I can relate to losing a child on that level. I was not there when my Nicholas passed and was never able to touch him again or say goodbye. I think about our 'potential' children all the time and it hurts me so badly but obviously, I am not meant to be a Mom either. I am sorry, but I am writing this through my tears right now and wish I could say something.... anything.... I am brave and strong but some things on some days, affect my no matter how long it’s been. But as I say in my blog, acceptance of these circumstances and allowing myself to feel makes it a lot easier and less frequent. I understand totally what you are saying about children responding to you differently now and I would venture to say that it is because you are functioning from your heart and soul now, just like I am. I don’t even try, its just the new me and I couldn’t be happier with the positive changes that this tragedy has blessed upon me. For me, I have become an Animal Angel and am really enjoying my new existence. God bless you and I for seeing our new potential. A lot of people don’t recover from things like this and I am most grateful that I have learned lessons as I too believe that things happen for a reason.
    Thank you so much for sharing with me and I am so glad that you found my blog as I put it out there to hopefully positively touch even just one suffering soul. It has been great to meet you and I hope we stay in touch. My direct e-mail is jsbda519@optonline.net. p.s. your avatar is my idol lol - i am a sun and ocean worshipper and take that position as often as I can [but not topless lol]

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  4. anav_caceres@hotmail.comFebruary 5, 2010 at 1:36 PM

    Thank you for replying, Judy and for your kind words.
    I understand exactly when you say that we are "functioning from our hearts and soul" - and without even trying.That's just it! Sometimes our conscious minds rule the rest, and we should learn to live through heart and soul more.
    It has been great meeting you too! Youve made my day today! And yep, let's keep in touch!
    Oh, and never feel that you can't be a mum - all the children are "our" children somehow, as they are a treausure of life for all of us to respect and look out for.. And don't forget that our little furry creatures are like our children too. So, I think you already are a Mum!!!
    And Im sure, like I said before, that Michael is smiling and looking out for you somewhere...
    Hugs and thanks again for your words and for caring! Ana

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  5. I am very happy to read this.
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